Love Elusive…

Life used to be so easy…or at least it seemed that way.

The man that I “hoped” was he, is not.

I very much believe in woman’s intuition, so much so that I can’t ignore this nagging feeling that “something’s quite not right.”

He hasn’t disrespected me.

He’s been a gentleman to me, but yet…”something’s not right.”

Twice as our phone conversations abruptly ended, the feeling that “something’s just not right” quickly attached itself to me out of nowhere, like stray hair, and loose string to a velcro panel.

I don’t know what happened. I don’t know when it transpired, all I know is that it did.

Recently, as the days became the next, I’ve ruminated (that’s right…I ruminate!)…I’ve wandered why is it, that I come oh so close to entering a potential relationship, only to watch (to my chagrin) that very potential leave my life as quietly and unobtrusively as a butterfly, off to unknown parts?

I’ve classified myself as “Love Elusive.”

I believe (and I’m a realist) that I’ll always be two steps behind love. Maybe I’m like Apostle Paul…I’ll be single.

Don’t get me wrong, being single does has its advantages:

No compromising

Come and go as I please.

 

I can look at handsome men

I don’t have to cook, lol

No abuse-homicide concerns from partner

But yet, I still desire to be a part of a relationship.

I’m not sure what God’s will for my life is in that area. But I do know that He knows what’s best for me. I do know that I will never have to settle, again. And it’s ok. I may be “Love Elusive” or maybe I’ve eluded the love that was wrong for me.

Only time will tell.